So this is the last blog I’ll write in 2009. That feels weird. This feels weird. I remember this time last year… angry that Alex didn’t want to spend new year with me… I went out to the village party with the family. I counted down the minutes till midnight; I was desperate to go [...]
Archive for December, 2009
The End of 09
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Why Hoarding Is a Good Thing.
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The joy of hoarding notes and scribblings and pictures and poems is that sometimes, you look through your stash of black on white, and you find something which helps you out. Something which cheers you up, something which makes you smile… something which makes you sad, cry or think a while. And it’s nice. Because [...]
Let The Angels Take A Soul
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I wish I had something worth writing. Actually, perhaps that’s not true. You know I write more when I am unhappy… and right now, I’m not unhappy. So it is a good thing that I have little to write. I miss my imagination, now I no longer have to retreat to it, but I am [...]
I’m Just Lovely Thank You
Posted in Uncategorized on December 29, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Though I want to fade away… cease to exist… I don’t like the getting there. And I can’t imagine it’ll be any better unless I am gone completely. I feel so… lonely. Do you miss me like I miss you? I can’t begin to imagine what it must be like for you. I try so [...]
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There are skeleton dreams For beauty queens Torn apart in reems and reems Of paper screams, From paper dolls, With paper skulls… And heavy tolls befall Those who aspire… Aspire, Perspire & Respire Beauty. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zl6hNj1uOkY
Posted in Uncategorized on December 28, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
ARGH. I’m angry. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate you.I hate [...]
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Hiding
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Today, I wanted to hide. I wanted to stay shut away in my room and not be seen by anyone. Because today I feel ashamed. Don’t ask me why, because I don’t know why. But today something in my head told me I didn’t deserve to exist. And I listened. It was strange, y’know, I [...]
Argh. Thoughts…censored.
Posted in Uncategorized on December 28, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
“To gain that which is worth having, it may be necessary to lose everything else.” Burnadette Devlin I keep writing things here. And then deleting them. I write crazily… then stop… and backspace the whole lot. Because I can’t decide. I can’t decide what should be my reality. I have a thousand and one [...]
